New Goals and YAAY Meds!

I actually woke up today feeling as if I didn't want to go back to bed. Sure, I snoozed in for a bit because it was a bit chilly, but I actually feel good today. For me, feeling sleeping is a sign of depression. The way I am "normally" is when I wake up early, get my starbs, and seize the day. I'm usually the annoying "HI EVERYONE GOOD MORNING!" But as of lately my dog has sort of taken on that role.

Even though taking care of my dog has been a lot of work (and has dug a fairly deep hole in my wallet) she has brought me infinite amounts of happiness. In a lot of ways, she helps me see the sovereignty of God in my life. I think she is part of the reason why I haven't completely gone overboard. I mean, who would take care of her? She would miss me terribly. I'd imagine it'd be something like this husky crying. Having her around gives me a sense of purpose and humbles me. I know I've fought with my roomies and other people about her, but deep down she has been my little pocket full of sunshine.

I'm not sure why I haven't been compliant with my medication. I think there's this part of me that is against the idea of depending on a medication to help me function. But then again, as I've talked to Dr. Kinnes about, people depend on medication everywhere. God blessed the scientists who developed these drugs. To not take these meds would almost be a negation of the brilliant minds of God's wonderful creation.

My Goobers, Harley and Jeff

With that in mind, I also think I have the right support. I have my two goobers to keep me laughing and to help brighten my day. That's the thing about me, if you can get me to laugh then I can slowly get out of my funk. Both Harley and Jeff manage to find new and innovative ways to do so. Just the faces they make, or the weird noises that come out of their bodies. I love them both :)

I plan to wake up early and go to the gym every day. That will help me get a good start for each day. That involves giving myself a bed time and I hate that idea, but keep a cycle will help. Now it's just a matter of getting myself back on track. I'm gonna spend today catching up on homework, drinking my starbs, and going to my women's therapy group.

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Song of the Day: Pocket Full of Sunshine - Natasha Bedingfield
"I got a pocket, got a pocket full of sunshine 
I've got a love and I know that it's all mine!"