I envy the sun

I think one of my biggest issues is that I don't know how to be happy. I'm currently in an absolutely amazing relationship with someone. Even after I have had my paranoia of infidelity or ulterior motives quelled, I find myself making them.


I set people up for failure because I think I don't know any other way. I keep saying that I desire to be happy, yet I keep imposing these obstacles.
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Song of the Day: Touch Me - Spring Awakening
"Where I go, when I go there, 
No more weeping anymore -
Only in and out your lips,
The broken wishes, washing with them, to shore...
Touch me - all silent
Tell me, please, all is forgiven."